Friday, 27 September 2013

In the loving memory of my mum

Is been a week today since you've left us to go to heaven and I miss you more than ever.The past 2 weeks have passed so quick and my heart hurts every time I think of your last moments. I was glad that you went because I couldn't bear to see you in so much pain but at the same time I felt like someone stabbed me in the heart.I never felt such anger and sadness in my life. I was angry that you didn't want to fight anymore and that you ended up in a horrible hospital without us being there for you.The guilt I feel is beyond words and hope you can forgive me for not knowing better.I am so upset that you didn't get the chance to meet Mason but I will make sure he knows all about you. I brought your ashes with me so you'll never be alone anymore. 

Words are beyond my ability to express the pain I feel but I hope that you can see us and look over us.

I keep trying to ring you like I always used to so you can tell me the latest gossip and moan about the heat, the weather, the car who played with dead mice in your garden... But you are not at the end if the phone anymore :( 

I hope one day I will be able to find peace with myself and be happy again and I hope you found peace where you are.

I love you forever.Rest in peace my beautiful Mum xxx

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